Awesome…Rors told me there was one near me, and I’ve been trying to find it. Yee!! I finally found it, and it’s just a mile away from me at the Divine Mercy Perpetual Adoration Chapel. Glad I finally found it…thanks for the tip Rors.
I was thinking about calling the temp agency since money is starting to become a bigger concern for me the longer I go without steady income (especially with an incident that happened yesterday).
Temp agency has a possible opp for me at the Alameda County Bar Association at Jack London Square in Oakland. It’s a non-profit that gives free Legal support to the people, so I definitely feel like the work I will be doing is meaningful and is for a good cause. It would be part-time 12-5 everyday paying at a good hourly wage. I like that it is part time because it still allows me the opportunity to volunteer elsewhere and continue exploring different roles in healthcare or sleep in during the mornings.
The Senior Recruiter is gonna send in my resume along with two others to give them options but will push for me as the top candidate because of my experience in research (though prior experiences were more biomedical related, the skillsets and requirement for attention to detail still apply).
I just have a big fat smile on my face right now and feel joy in my heart. The storms of the past couple weeks I feel are finally blowing over, and I can get back to my life and focusing on taking care of myself.
After helping Edward with his free veggie giveaway program at the Over 60 Clinic and having Huevos con Chorizo and freshly squeezed Orange Juice for breakfast with the boys this morning, I took a big fat nap and am ready to pick things up again :]. Laundry and working on my Resume and Cover Letter are my current goals. leggo!
Please pray that they will decide to select me and take me on board :D! I would super appreciate it :] :]
“I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.”—Unknown (via littlemiss)
Because of my exhaustion and because I am mentally and emotionally drained, I am going to check out for my own personal wellness day.
I NEED to write my prayers for Friday ASAP. In an effort to focus on myself and my prayers I am:
Not texting for the day unless it’s really important. Please…if you need me…you call me, video chat me, or come see me in person. I want to hear and speak with a person and not read texts.
I am going to eat my parent’s new batch of their versions of homecooked Filipino frozen dinners lol.
When I take a break from writing prayers, maybe I’ll watch TV
I am going to stay at home for the day maybe in my bed…maybe on the couch (one of our three lol) and let myself feel comfortable and not guilty I am not working on other things like job apps.
I am going to shower and do laundry when I feel like it.
I’m going to live today..completely and utterly as I please. In MY way, and I don’t care what anyone says
This day is solely for my own physical, spiritual, mental, and emotional well being. This is my pledge for my own Personal Wellness Day. Today is all about me, and I owe it to myself to take care of myself.
If you do everything out of love…you can NEVER go wrong…EVER!
Because doing everything out of love means that God can work in you and through you to do His good work. I know this x100000000000000000000(infinity and beyond) after the latest trial in my life. God can lead you with an open heart if you are actively trying to ask and listen for his guidance and look for His signs.
The double-edged sword of the Spirit (the Word of God)…that cuts not only the defense but also cuts the offense.
If your thoughts are protected and safe and cannot be penetrated, guard your HEART (love & the people around you).
If you’re patient and carrying an open heart..God WILL provide.
10Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life.
Again, as a personal message to myself: do everything out of love because God = love (stay God-centered).
“4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”—
On Joy and Peace…Binoy told me to read this to focus…mmm
I woke up late today at around 9:15AM. Missed my goal of going to Daily Mass at least once this week :[. I’ll try again next week for sure as I try to prepare myself spiritually for next Friday.
Someone’s car alarm is going off, and there’s a little bit of sunlight putting up a fight trying to break through the blinds in our dark living room. The cold is hanging in the air. My glasses were freezing when I put them on. My sea of blankets in my sick corner is too cozy to think about leaving lol.
Gaby missed work today and just came out feeling achy. I think I got her sick..whoops :X. She’s watching “Russian Dolls” on TV hahahaha. She told me she wanted to sleep on my couch cause she felt sick last night but felt like it’d probably be gross with me having shed the virus all over it lol. Viruses need a host though…so it won’t be infectious for long! I’ll probably steam clean and try to sterilize it when I get better.
I feel soooo much better today. Ana made me theraflu last night, and it actually works! My congestion went away…but I feel so dehydrated even now. I feel like my insides are all dried up!! Definitely better than that POS generic “tussin” medicine we got from Safeway.
I feel like we haven’t had a day home like this since college. Despite the discomfort of feeling sick, it’s kinda nice.
Anyway, I’m optimistic about hopefully going to clinic tomorrow.
So my symptoms have worsened. I took my friend to health coaching training on Sat, and she told me how there was this virus going around Cal campus. I thought..oh that sucks lol. She felt sick, but she thought her allergies were acting up. We shared a horchata during lunch.
EFF ME! I’m pretty certain that same virus is invading! All I can think of are little virus spaceships landing all along my inner linings, replicating, blasting the crap outta my cells and leaking out.
(Doesn’t it look like a spaceship lol?)
I thought…this little heffer….I went around my apt wiping anything I thought I touched with anti-microbial wipes..though I think a this point, I’ve probably already exposed my roommates :/. Sorry!!!
Had my own consult with my Nurse Practitioner Big Seastar!!! She recommended for now a clear-fluids and BRAT diet. o__O
Dennis shared this website with me telling me about the “Occupy Wallstreet” protests currently happening.
I’m not too educated/informed on the topic…but I definitely think it is alarming to think that in these tough times, the middle class is not even safe. My friend works in the Financial Aid Office as a Counselor at Cal, and we were discussing how crazy it was that the fee increases just keep escalating for PUBLIC education. Pretty soon even middle class won’t be able to afford a college degree from a PUBLIC institution.
Initially, when I was making college decisions back as a Senior in high school long ago, I really wanted to attend this small private liberal arts college on the East Coast. It was my number one choice. They accepted me early and gave me an all expenses-paid trip to go visit Philly for 3.5 days, and I loved the intense intellectual atmosphere and how small and nurturing the school was. I also liked that they had such a supportive and successful environment for helping their students to matriculate into medschool (~88% acceptance rate), my dream at the time.
However, our problem was that it cost 50k a year, and they only offered me 20k in scholarship. That meant they expected my parents to pay 30k out of pocket. Seeing those numbers, they were really hesitant in sending me there because of the debt that would accumulate for me every year since I would have to take some big loans. Would it be worth the investment? I didn’t understand what those numbers looked like or meant at the time and probably can’t even imagine what it would’ve been like for me today.
Though I cried because it felt like a dream was slipping away at the time, when my mom asked me if I could go to Berkeley…I said okay. Though I had never been to the campus before and had to pass up my chance on Senior Weekend because I visited the other college the same weekend, I know now that it was exactly where I was meant to be. I definitely attribute a lot of who I am to the people, culture, and experiences that have touched me since my time moving up here. I don’t think I would even care about the same things as I do today or kinda just have this sense of awareness. Though it was often love&hate because Berkeley beat the crap out of our confidence sometimes…I’m really happy with the path I’ve travelled and with the people who have taken the journey with me. I am inspired by surrounding myself with authentic people who sincerely care so much about just helping people. They make me want to be as wholesome as possible.
My mom worked two jobs as a registered nurse to put my sister and me through college, and I’m really so glad and fortunate to be debt-free..and really realizing the privilege I have now as an educated individual ready to hopefully really contribute in some way.
I couldn’t find a live public stream of today’s keynote…but I followed this live blog for updates. Been with my iPhone3GS for almost two years, so I’m definitely excited for my upgrade! Well, I don’t want to let go of my unlimited data…so I’ll see how that works out. Honestly, as slow as my 3GS is getting…I appreciate my unlimited data enough to keep it if getting the new iPhone retail and keeping my unlimited data doesn’t work out.
Anyway…no iPhone5 yet, but the improvements they made for iPhone4S are pretty impressive (battery life, processing speeds, resolution, camera/vid cam quality, and a new AI feature that allows you to ask your phone to do things for you - “Suri” o__O), and they’re expanding their carriers (AT&T, Verizon, & Sprint) and distribution. Lol 3GS will now be free on contract, and iPhone4 8gb will be just $99!!
At this rate…I’m pretty certain that the cell phone market will be strictly monopolized by smartphones in a few years time. And all the non-smartphones people are still using today will meet their death by irrelevancy and join the cellphone/obsolete technology graveyard of zack morris phones, nokia blocks, razrs, sidekick…floppy disks, VH’s, Zip drives, etc..hahaha
So the temp agency had a gig lined up for me. Good pay. Full time. 10 min away from me. Can start working as soon as tomorrow. Doing high level data entry and processing for some construction firm. Not exactly my cup of tea..but whatever…I thought great..finally start earning again!
Only problem was the senior recruiter was really vague on the length of time required. She said it would be for some number of months. Possibly temp to hire. I thought..okay I’ll just sign for now and do work and actively search for jobs in the meantime. If I get offered a job I’m interested in, maybe I could train someone else and move on. Strategy was all perfect in my mind.
One friend said…be careful if it’s too long term, you don’t wanna burn any bridges if you leave before your time is up.
Second friend said…just be an asshole. It’s temporary work anyway not permanent. Not like you’ll need them for references or for your resume.
I went with the second piece of advice first because seeing the numbers on my bank account slowly dwindle scares me. But somehow, as I talked to the recruiter on the phone, and she mentioned it would at least be until December…I think she could sense my hesitation despite my best efforts to mask it and just started to tease me apart. Then I was just honest with her. I gave her a better idea of my situation, and she was confident in me that other opportunities would come my way while the other person she had waiting for this position if I declined wouldn’t have the same opportunities given my experience.
I know this is temp work anyway, and I really shouldn’t play it nice or give a damn because right now I do need to look out for myself first…but it felt like the right decision.
Isn’t that the nature of temp work though? People are looking to jump out just as soon as they jump in. It’s a good thing if someone even lasts a couple months. That’s why they have a good number of backups right?
I don’t know I guess it’s hard for me personally because for me I really take to heart consideration. Even if I’m a part of something really little, and I am carrying their name…I want to represent it as best as possible. I want to deliver the best service can. I want to feel like whatever I’m doing is good and meaningful. I would work my ass off for you because you took a chance on me.
But I also feel like..I also need to not care so much or invest myself so much because I do need to look out for myself at least until I can be stable, and I’m not just surviving. It’s expected people are gonna leave anyway.
I dunno..I feel like the recruiter appreciated my honesty, and she’s seriously so nice and is confident in me taking a gamble even if she thought I was more qualified than the other person she had in mind. I trust that she’ll pay the karma forward and will stay true when she says she’ll keep looking for more temporary gigs that can help my situation.
So if I feel like I did the right thing…why do I still feel like sh*t? @___@